Thursday, November 5, 2009

Thursday thoughts

Bullet point thoughts for today

  • I have a fantastic network through church. Supportive, interesting, enjoyable and welcoming. The couples and families we have met and come to call as friends are amazing people. Each in their own individual ways.

  • Wood burning fireplaces make beautiful fires.

  • H1N1 is a bummer. Sick kids when I have full time work = stuck at home mommy doing laundry on a beautiful day...well, I guess it isn't all bad!

  • Woodpeckers can grow to the size of a small(ish) cat. And one lives in our backyard. So far it is elusive to the camera...but we'll capture him and show him someday.

  • Legos make cool McDonalds cheeseburgers, and McDonalds delivery cars.

I applied for a job, and interviewed for it, and was all but told that I had said position. I prayed before the interview that the Lord would guide the committee in their decision. I prayed that I would know if this position was one that would be a good fit for my family. I truly believed that it was. I really really wanted this job. I wanted it so bad that I believed it was mine...and then last week, they went with another candidate. I was crushed. I was hurt, and I was angry. And for a short while I was even angry with God. Didn't I pray? I was more than qualified...I was perfect for the job! Didn't I ask for wisdom and peace to accept whatever decision they made? So why does it hurt so much? Why do I feel so betrayed?

Because I wanted it.

Lesson learned? What we want, and what is best for us is not always the same thing. He is absolutely all knowing, and He knows that while I wanted this job, it must not have been the right fit for my family. He knows that the right position is out there somewhere, and with His help, and by trusting in Him, I know I will find it. Or it will find me. Whatever the case, I know that while things that seem right, and on paper might even seem perfect aren't always the best choice. The boys are learning that. They are learning that just because they "think" they want doesn't always mean that it is what is best for them. Even when they are getting conflicting opinions and inconsistant information. Thank God they are learning to turn to Him and trust in Him too. That is the best lesson of all.

1 comment:

Jolene said...

When I read this, I thought, "perhaps you did pray and God did answer." He answered in His will, not yours, ours, mine. I hate that and love that all at the same time. I feel like God is always giggling at us. Like, "hahaha, will you learn a lesson today?" LOL

Today is a new day, and God has it all planned out, trust Him.