Wednesday, October 21, 2009


I don't pretend to know everything.

Sometimes, I pretend to know nothing.

I don't have everything.

But I certainly don't have nothing.

I am not loved by everyone.

But gratefully I am not loved by no one.

I am blessed.

I took some time to sit in the sanctuary at church today. Just me. And the person practicing the organ for the weekend's services in the balcony above me. What a beautiful moment. Just me. And God. and the person practicing the organ Right there, just us. And He spoke to me. Tears came to my eyes, and I felt enlightened.

I really am blessed.

I have truth in my life. I can hold my head high. No phony outward behavior. Just me. What you see is what you get. Take me or leave me.

I am finding balance between my family, friends, church and work. The people I am surrounding myself with are not from one avenue in my life. And I am finding that the more people I get to know, the more I like myself. Who knew? The fabulous people that I get to see each day are teaching me things about life and relationships that I used to wish for. I respect them. And blessedly, they respect me too. Awesome.

I am not ashamed of my past. In fact, my past is what has helped me become the person that I am today. I am proud of my conduct past and present. The truth is my sword and my shield. Amazing how that works.

My fantasy is my reality. I've said that before. It really is true.


Kami said...

You said "what you see is what you get. Take me or leave me."

I'll take you! :)

You're an amazing woman, Jodie, and don't ever allow yourself to feel less than that!

Jolene said...

I read this and thought the same thing, Kami!

I'll take you, Jodie!!!! :)